i can't wait till this week is over.  i had my behind handed to me by work this week and can't wait to go running from my office tomorrow afternoon.  i'm not sure if i'm just tired of administration, tired of dealing with some very needy and/or mentally severe clients, tired of not being paid what i should be for the amount of work that i do, fatigued in general since it's my time of the month, or a combination of all the above things.  i had a meeting with my sup on tuesday about productivity since i had not met my goal since january.  to my defense, february was a short month, a took a few days off, and there were two days when the weather sucked and no one came in.  for march, i was out for basically for a week due to weather, illness, and taking a few days off because i had to.  my sup ran the report and found that for the third quarter, i was about 15 hours short of where i should be.  it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be due to the various reasons i listed above.  i then asked her about double booking and she told me not to worry about it which i definitely won't.  i had another meeting with her today and she saw that i am busy and joked she will lay off me for awhile.  thank goodness because it was starting to really get to me hearing about how my productivity has been off the last two months. 

i was talking to shuk about it the other day and was venting about work.  any month i take vacation i will be short in productivity hours.  there is no way i will work 50+ hours a week when i get back to make up for those vacation hours.  how is it a vacation if i have to somehow have to make up the hours i took off?  there are some therapists that work 40+ hours and do meet productivity and bonuses.  i'm just not one of them because one, i do enough work; two, i need a break from it or i'll go screaming out of my office soon; and three, i don't get paid enough to work 40+ hours.  being salaried sucks.

i have mad respect for my mom and missy and anyone else who works 11+ hours.  i worked yesterday from 9am-8pm.  i was annoyed i had to go back to the main office to do the evening divorce group after my normal work day.  i was in no mood to do it because one, i hate divorce groups and two, i had a killer migraine.  i plowed through it so i could go home and go straight to bed.  i'm not sure how my mom works 12 hour days some days but give her a lot of credit for doing it so often.  i did it one day and am now whining about it.  props to missy for working 12 hour days on wednesday and all weekend to help support her family.  here are two women who work their butts off all the time without much complaint and here i am whining after ONE 11 hour day.  they are much better women than i am.  i suppose i wouldn't complain so much if i didn't have a killer migraine last night.  when i got home, i popped some pills, took a nap till 10, showered, and went back to sleep.  i'll complain again in june after my next 11 hour day.

since i've been so blah lately, i treated myself to an early birthday present.  do i need another pair of jeans?  of course not, but it was sign that i HAD to buy them because i found a coupon code and they were in my size.  i justified the purchase by telling myself i deserve them because it's my birthday month, i was helping the economy, and i finally found a petite pair in my size which is a rarity.

nice to FINALLY talk to steve since he's been MIA.  he called to inform me squirrel touch 2008 started a few days ago.  caught up with him about what's been going on and his life.  it's nice to know steve will actually call me to keep me posted on important matters such as squirrel touch 2008.

till next time.

have faith.