so work was a much, much better day than yesterday.  i woke up and told myself it's a new day, so leave yesterday's crap behind.  it wasn't so bad client wise in that no one told me off or wanted to end services for something i was obligated by law to do.  i guess that's part of life, you take the good with the bad.

so i'm working on my notes and a co-worker walks in and says she loves my hair.  i say thanks and told her my hair was way better when the stylist first cut my hair.  the way i do my hair now, i have no idea how the back looks because i don't have a three way mirror or a hand held one.  she told me my hair has always looked really good and that i should do hair commercials.  i thought it was funny because my hair is so crazy sometimes and people don't know that i have to put forth some effort in the morning so i don't look like a train wreck.  i joked that we should quit our jobs for a career in hair modeling and that she could be my manager.  having people style my hair to make it look fabulous for shoots or to market products would be the best job ever.  i think.

it was a nice pick me up after a really bleh day yesterday.

what is up with all these celebrities dying?  everyone from last week and now billie mays?  what is going on?

have faith.

so after a really great weekend sweating up a storm and eating delish food, i come back to crap.  my client that i blogged about in the last entry decides to cancel her appointment this week and tells support staff to tell me she does not want to reschedule because of what i did.  i don't know why she is so mad, i told her what may happen if she would not back down on making threats to harm other people.  whatever.  i am not about to lose my independent license over stupid junk like this.  my behind would've been sued up the ying yang if she did beat people up and word got out i knew about it.

then my 1pm showed up in a swell mood (i'm being sarcastic here) and proceeded to drop f-bombs left and right.  f this, f that, f the place i work at and everyone that works there.  so being the good therapist that i am, i inquire about her mood and why she is so upset at my work and everyone there.  she tells me that everyone at my work could f themselves.  ok, so i pry more and asked what happened and why would she be mad if everyone has given her what she wanted meaning the doctor.  she then goes on a tirade on how she is pissed at her dad for making her do a million things and she wants an hour to herself.  since it's been awhile since she was this irate and i know she just started new meds, i asked how the meds were working.  she proceeded to yell at me at how i don't listen to her and that she wants an hour to herself.  so then i tell her if she did not want to be in session, no one was forcing her to stay.  again i am yelled at by her and was told she had to come.  again, i tell her if she does not want to stay and work on issues, she does not have to stay.  she then gets up and tells me and everyone at work to f off and storms off.  so that was a fantastic 10 minute session for me. 

i must've looked really beat up and defeated today because my supervisior came in and talked to me about what happened with my clients.  normally, i wouldn't let stuff like this get to me but to have two rough clients incidents was a bit much to handle on a monday.

i just have to remember tomorrow is a brand new day and to not let others bring me down. 

it's been a stressful time for my family due to my aunt's health condition.  please keep her in your thoughts and prayers.  it just reinforces my thoughts from the last entry to just live each day the best i can and to not sweat the small stuff.  life is really too short to be upset over dumb crap like client's foul moods.  i learned to just deal with things as they come and address conflicts after a good night's sleep.  things don't seem as bad to me the next day.  plus, do i want to spend my days being pissed off?  not so much.

have faith.

today at work sucked a lot because of a pain in the ass client who made threats to hurt someone else.  it was such a hassle to do the duty to warn and million consults before i left work today.  plus, my sup was at my whole side so i had to deal with her watching my every move, consult, and phone call.  on top of that, she wanted to read every single note i wrote on the case.  i know it's good that she is wanting to make sure i do everything right since it's my license and her license on the line but man it is so nerve wrecking to have her hover over me.  i hope i don't have a lot of junk to deal with later with this case but who am i kidding?

it is so crazy michael jackson died today since to my knowledge he wasn't very sick with a terminal illness like farrah fawcett or was very old like ed mcmahon.  it's been a weird week three celebrities died about the same time.  as the saying goes, people die in threes.  this also goes to show you should make each day count and tell people you love them often before they leave unexpectently.  just another reminder to myself to just let the little b.s. go and wake up each day leaving all the b.s. behind.  as the cliche goes, life just really is too short to be negative.  i want to live my life where if i were to die, i can leave knowing i tried my best each day to live life and enjoy it.  rest in peace michael, farrah, and ed.

have faith.

so i went home this weekend thinking i could see my dad before he left for cali to see ong.  i thought he was leaving on saturday but i was wrong.  i was pretty much left alone the entire weekend since the boys were golfing every day and mom was working.  there is only so much internet and tv i can take before i go stir crazy.  so this weekend, left to entertain myself, i tackled my closet.  this is a daunting task since i have shoved things in there the last 8 years. 

as i was sorting through things, i found an old bottle of rum that was from mexico pretty much empty, lots of old photos and gifts that i forgot i had, and some other questionable items that i will not mention since i jacked those things to protect certain people.  all in all i filled half my parents' garbage bin with my junk and it still looks like i haven't done a thing to it.  as least i made some progress.

i swear nothing gives me a better high than finding great items at unbelieveable prices.  i found my mom some awesome wide leg trouser jeans for $5.  now she has a pair of jeans i don't hate.

time to do some online classes and kill time before the boys come home and we can have dinner.

happy first day of summer!

have faith.

had a fairly decent weekend excluding the drama surrounding the graduation.  i just don't get why things get so messy and it is dumped on me to handle parts of it.  it's just so annoying.  i guess it's just the way things are and have to learn to change my reaction to it because i don't see it ending any time soon.

i am so happy that i finally got my hair cut this weekend.  scott and carly's friend did an excellent job in cutting my hair and giving it a ton of layers.  it's slightly angled where the front is longer which is different for me but i like the change.  it was amusing that we spent most of the time chatting about people in scott, carly, and kate's class because of the age difference.  i guess it's ok since i know most of scott's friends since they were little and have gotten to know carly well.  love, love my hair cut.  the only bad thing is my old sup told me i look younger which i definitely don't want since i look young already.

went to carly's graduation on sunday and was reminded how bloody hot it is to sit in the stadium baking.  thankfully we were in the shade so it wasn't as hot as sitting in the seats with no shade.  i was already a sweaty mess in the shade so i can't imagine what i would be in the open seats.  john glenn's speech was "not impressive" according to my dad.  i just remember thinking how i could not understand gorden gee's speech because he was talking really fast.  then it was time for the graduates to get their diplomas and the fun game of find carly in the see of 8000 graduates.  we were able to pick her up and got her to look in the crowd to find us.  that was pretty cool she was able see us.  congrats to her for graduating with a 3.8.  i know i didn't do that well in college!

also congrats to jaime for being drafted by the cincinnati reds!  i still can't believe he's the little kid who would come over to the house to play with scott and now he's drafted by a major league team.  if he gets super famous i can show the pic i have with him before he made it big!

so glad june is half over.  the rest of the week is smooth sailing along with next week.  whatever it takes to keep my sanity at work.

have faith.

last night's grad party had way too much good food.  it was nice seeing family that i never see and catching up with everyone.  it's just crazy to see jenny graduate from high school and start college this fall.  i can remember when she came home as a newborn!  she's definitely grown into a beautiful young woman.

i don't know what happened but my one uncle and aunt kept telling me how good i look and to keep it up.  as vic and i were driving back to the apartment last night, my mom called me to tell me how the other adults commented how pretty i've become.  uhhh was i that bad looking before?  i personally don't think i changed much in terms of appearance.  the only thing that has changed is that i put on a little weight since they all last saw me but the face is the same and i didn't do any make up (although i wish i had since all the other girls were made up).  to me, i think the other girl cousins are way prettier than me at dinner last night.

it was a nice compliment to get but it just made me really curious as to what parts of my physical appearance changed to the point where people were coming up to my mom to tell her how pretty i am now.  like i said before, i don't think i changed one bit other than the weight gain.  oh yeah, i'm acne free.  yay!

it's just weird for me to get compliments because it just feels that i am being looked over and judged by everyone on my physical appearance.  it feels like a catch 22 to me.  it's nice to be noticed by my physical appearance but at the same time, if anything changes for the worse, then everyone's like "oh no what happend? you were so cute before". 

i sometimes feel that in my family there's too much emphasis on appearances.  it could definitely give me a complex.

time to finish up some work before heading over to my cousin's for another coma inducing dinner.

have faith.

i have done absolutely nothing so far and plan on doing nothing for the rest of the day.  i was so exhausted from work this past week that i went home from work yesterday and passed out for 2.5 hours.  i was suppose to get up for a run with vic but that didn't happen of course.  i did manage to do a quickie work out before seeing Up.  the movie is so cute and i just adore the main character's love for his wife.  the colors in the movie were breath taking.  i remember when i saw the scene with the balloons and just thought to myself "wow that is so gorgeous".  i would recommend that movie to anyone.

before i left for the movies, i had a nightmare where vic and i were in the car and we were talking about something.  i must've said something because vic then started yelling at me and telling me he disowned me from the family.  i remember i was crying really hard and then he yelled at me to let out of the car.  i woke up so i'm not sure what happened next.  i remember waking up really upset because i don't want that to happen with vic and me.  i told him about my dream and the comforting brother he is stated that it might be a premonition.  nice.

i will continue my nothing-ness day by lounging around a bit more before heading out to buy graduation gifts for various people.  then it's off to jenny's grad dinner in cleveland.  i'm sure i'll over do in with food tonight but how often do i go to big grad dinner?

have faith.

now that i finished work that i was told to redo because i must've had an air headed moment due to my excitement of seeing jessica, i can enjoy the rest of my day off.  i should've been in cbus hanging out with her, but i know i needed to take care of work issues first thing today instead of whenever i got back this afternoon.  with so many lay offs lately, i don't want my name to be mentioned.

anyway, i had a great weekend hanging out with jessica and everyone else for a day in cbus yesterday.  i got to see jaime when i met up with scott and carly at lunch.  at first, i was a little annoyed that scott asked if jaime could come but then i thought, this kid asked to hang out and i've seen jaime grow up since he and scott became friends in elementary school.  plus, i always liked jaime.  he's such a friendly, well mannered guy.  poor jaime, he was getting 20 questions when i and the rest of the lunch crew learned he was trying out for various major league baseball teams. 

after lunch, half the group left because carly had to work and my half walked around easton hanging out.  met up with more good friends and we found a place to sit and talk about what's been going on.  it was a good way for everyone to meet and get to know each other a little bit.  didn't leave cbus until night time but i didn't want to leave because i was having way too much fun hanging out with jessica.  i don't see her often so i try to maximize my time with her. 

it just really lifted my spirits to be around so many good people yesterday laughing and talking and start mixing various parts of my life together.  i think this weekend was what i needed to get me out of my aggravated funk that i've been in lately.

time to enjoy the rest of my day off!

have faith.

whoooooooooooo hooooooooooo i got my independent license!!!!!!!  came home from dinner and saw the big envelope with the state board logo on it.  i assumed it was another letter stating i didn't turn in something.  i opened it and pulled out my license.  i was in shock because i got an email last week telling me my packet was not complete. again.   someone up above must really, really love me because my frustration level was sky high.  getting my license totally made this week suck a lot less.

why is the wait staff so shocked when i order the maki dinner regular that includes 2 soups, 2 salads, and 3 rolls?  well, i end up trading one of my soups for my friend's salad because she doesn't like her salad.  i don't think it's a lot of food but i always get asked "do you want to save 1 soup and 1 salad for home?"  and when i say no, i get a look.  i like to eat.  sue me.

so at the staff meeting yesterday, the scary president explains why he did certain lay offs and what a financial mess my work is.  still doesn't make sense why certain lay offs happen but what do i know right?  due to incompetent people's work last year, i'm told i will not be getting a raise due to awesome financial state my work is in.  thank goodness i'm getting a hefty pay increase for my independent license.  it would've been nice to get a small raise to cover cost of living but i guess that's asking for too much.  to be positive here, at least i have a job.  that's what i keep telling myself to take the sting out of not getting a raise this year.

i am going to bed super happy that i got my license!  time to move on to bigger, better things.

can't wait until the weekend to see some of my favorites!

have faith.

why does it feel like this week is dragging?

va. trip was fun.  it was good to see a lot of family, hang out in nancy's killer new condo in dc, discover i'm way too old to go out, come to terms that my eye lids and eye liner don't mix, and have lots of bonding time with different family members.  i'm glad carly tagged along because she and i were able to have lots of girl time.  i don't talk to her much because we're both pretty busy.  it's nice to bond with her and talk about a lot of different things, especially since it looks like scott and her are pretty serious.  thank goodness i adore her!

pics are posted with my new camera.  whoot whoot!

can't wait for the weekend to come!!!!

have faith.