i walk in to work and check my mailbox.  in it was the dreaded note with my quality assurance rating.  yesterday an email was sent to therapists and case managers from the quality assurance director stating those needing to set up meetings with their supervisors and the quality assurance team will be notified shortly.  that email made me sick to my stomach. 

needless to say, i was anxious reading that note.  i saw that my peer review rating was still 100% but my quality assurance score dropped to 91.7%.  i was shocked that it dropped that much for two unchecked boxes.  i knew it would drop but figured it would be 4% points at the most.  at the bottom was circled the message stating i needed to meet with my supervisor and the quality assurance team to come up with an informal plan to prevent this from happening.

that note seriously ruined my entire day at work.  this is probably my 10th review and every single review was 100%.  i just can't believe my rating dropped that much for two stupid boxes.  it's not like i left a whole page of the assessment incomplete.  it just kills me that i got dinged for something so stupid.  i strive to provide meticulous work and this has really bummed me out.

i know i'm not solely defined by my work.  i know that i won't die from this meeting.  i just need to stop being such a perfectionist.  i have to remember i'm human and will make mistakes.  i have to remember it's ok if i make mistakes as long as i learn from them.

have faith.