finally it feels like spring for more than a day.  it's just nice to have may feel like may and to have a string of sunny days.  for awhile, it felt like it winter to fall.  i hope i can put away my winter sweaters away until fall.  i absolutely love that it gets dark around 8:45pm.  true, i don't go out much after work, but it's nice for me to have all that extra sun light. 

i got around to watching true life i have schizophrenia.  it's probably one of the worst mental illnesses a person can have based on the type of symptoms a person may have.  i can't imagine leaving with psychotic symptoms like hearing voices or seeing things all the time.  also, the paranoid thinking would be very stressing to say the least. it's the paranoid thinking that makes most people with schizophrenia refuse to take their medications because they think someone is poisoning them.  the suicide rate is high for this population because some are able to see how difficult their life will be and will often kill themselves.  the show showed a guy that i see most often-does not take medication, has a lot of psychotic symptoms and paranoid thoughts, and is addicted to some substance.  it's very difficult for me to get anywhere with them, but all i can do is try and definitely engrain in them a safety plan so they don't hurt themselves.  the other two people the show followed were able to manage their symptoms through a combination of medication and therapy.  it was encouraging for me to see that some people with schizophrenia can get better with treatment.  i should add if they are compliant with treatment.

had a pleasant weekend out and about enjoying the weather and relaxing.  i found out hammocks rock and definitely would like to have one one day.  thanks buddy for being nice to me the majority of the time.  you can kick my butt later for that comment!

have faith.