went to a couples in conflict workshop yesterday in cleveland.  i was looking forward to it because lately i've been doing more couples therapy which i hate doing for a couple of reasons.  one, i'm not trained to do couples therapy, i'm trained to do individual.  two, couples therapy usually don't last long because i'm generally direct with the couples.  it usually happens in this order-i tell the couples what i think or what i see is as the problem and the couples never return after that session. 

a co-worker went with me and it was nice to have a familiar face at the workshop.  the presenter was really good and entertaining enough to keep me awake throughout the workshop.  it probably helped that i was eating candy every half hour.  i learned a lot about how affairs and how to help couples resolve through that if they choose to work on the relationship.  there were some annoying people at the workshop who would ask dumb questions or present irrelevant scenarios.  my co-worker and i would exchange looks that said omg, won't that person shut up so the presenter can continue with his workshop?  i also felt smart because some of the techniques the presenter talked about were things i already used in my couples therapy.  it just made me feel like i wasn't totally screwing things up in session and that somewhere in my scatter brained thinking, i'm doing something right.

i also networked with other therapists there and found a few to be in private practice.  i definitely asked a lot of questions about it because that's where i want to be in the near future.  i know i've been uberly stressed with work the past month to the point where i just don't want to get out of bed to go to work.  it's not necessarily the work that gets to me but all the politics behind working at a community agency.  i understand that it's a business and the hours i bill are what makes my work run, but don't shove it down my throat everytime i have meet with my supervisor and administration.  it's just discouraging when the only thing the administration looks at is my schedule and freaking out on me because of last week's higher than normal cancellation rate.  sorry if my clients get sick, have to work, or don't have gas to come to appointments.  argh!  maybe i just had a bad work month and things in april will pick up so administration will get off my back about productivity.

i just hope things get better at work.  even though i haven't worked a full work week in three weeks, it just seems to drag each day.  i just remember when i used to like going to work.

just my luck.  i finally get the acne treatment i want and my face is starting to clear up a little.  i'm not sure if it's because i'm weaning myself off the sucky treatment i was on or if jessica's products are helping.  maybe i'm more calm now that my friend's visit is over.  i was stressed about finding things to do, finding places to eat, and etc. etc.  i will cry at the doctor's if i go in and find out i can't get my treatment because my skin improved.  i should stress out more or not use some products to insure that won't happen.  am i slightly crazy to do this?  absolutely because i never ever want to get acne again.

on a more positive note, i really love the spring weather.  it just makes me more tolerable to work having the sun fill my office with light and warmth.  i also love how it gets dark around 8 now.  there is nothing i don't like about spring.

have faith.