had one fantastic weekend.  i can't really think of anything that happened that was bad which is pretty rare since something usually happens.  the last time i had this much fun and was this happy was when i was in richmond.  ate a ton of good food like the most amazing tacos at this hole in the wall restaurant and ton of extra korean food since the restaurant messed up the order.  this weekend was what i needed to just take a break from the craziness that's been going on at work.  i just have a feeling things are going to get worse before they get better.

the only blip happened tonight when my weekend was pretty much over.  it was just hurtful and disappointing that someone that i thought would have my back doesn't.  it's shocking that someone that i thought would believe me didn't the past 4 years.  i was so upset and hurt that i in turn flew off the handle.  usually when i get mad, i get quiet.  since i felt hurt, disappointed, and frustrated, i turned those feelings into anger and went into attack mode.  i'm just picturing my anger management handout that's tacked on my cork board at work and could see again how that is such an accurate hand out on anger. i'm not proud of what i did and remembered to have some sense to get off the phone before more damage was done on my end.  thankfully, one of the bffs was available for me to calm down a lot.  i'll catch up the other bff on sunday.

i don't care for people who lie.  i have some issues with family members who lie and it's probably why we're not close.  with that mentality, i worked hard to establish my word as legit and with credibility.  i think that's why i took it so hard.  i don't have any reason to lie, especially about the incident in question.

oh well, just focus on the work week ahead and just think of all the fun i had this weekend.

fun fact that i was totally unaware of until this weekend:coffee comes from a fruit!

have faith.

i bought the book the blind side several weeks ago because i am obsessed with michael oher.  i remember reading about his story awhile back and was amazed at how everything came together for him.  basically michael oher is a young black poor boy who gets adopted by a wealthy white family in memphis.  michael basically had the cards stacked against him but somehow, he managed to succeed despite his many deficits. it amazes me that this family took him in their home so willingly and treated him like their own blood relative.

i love reading how the mom, leigh anne, was a spit fire and did what she thought was right even though her family had some major prejudices.  i love reading how michael became protective of his new family.  i love reading how innocent and gentle michael was despite his massive size.  he had every reason to be angry and aggressive given his early upbringing but he ended up being quite gentle.  reading about him makes me want to find him in baltimore and give him a big hug (he's currently playing for the baltimore ravens).

the parts that weren't about michael were very dry.  i learned a lot about the birth of the left tackle position, lawrence taylor, and the west coast offense.  i suppose i could skip all the chapters on football but figured i should get some back ground knowledge on it.  now when i hear people talk about west coast offense i know what it is and how it came to be.

can't wait to see the movie. 

can't wait for the weekend!

have faith.

nothing is more frustrating to me right now than buying a plane ticket earlier this week due to fear that prices would go up more (it went up $20 from 2 weeks ago) only to find it dropped back down.  i don't travel during the holidays because i never have to fly anywhere since my parents are in the same state so i had very little experience with ticket prices.  my gut told me to wait another week or two but fear got the best of me.  now i'm left with a ticket that's $20 more than what i should've paid.  the things i could buy for $20!  i should listen to my own advice that i tell my clients-don't act on emotions!

the best thing for me to do is to not look again now that i have my ticket but the compulsive and neurotic person that i am, i can't help but put myself through that torture.  crazy i know. 

yay for tomorrow off!  hopefully, my visit to the dentist will be cavity free.

such is my life.

have faith.

it was surfing along my usual sites when i saw a blip about weezer and leighton meester performing together to weezer's new song.  i found it on you tube and found that this unusual pairing wasn't that bad.  it was quite catchy.  i then proceeded to play several old weezer songs and pretty much rocked out by myself.  i then went to the weezer website and thought it would be cool to check out tour dates.  i saw that they were coming to virginia but it wouldn't work out because the one person i would take will be schmoozing with important people out west.

i am really feeling this new weezer song.  it's just so happy.  i'm also really feeling train's soul sister song.  it instantly puts me in a good mood even though i'm not really big on train.

have faith.

i am whipped today.  it's been a long time since i had all but one client show up.  it figures it would happen on the day i'm working my  long day.  hopefully it will keep up so i can improve productivity since i haven't met productivity the last 2 months.  i will chalk september to a loss since i was not at work 7 days.  i hope the rest of the week holds up so i beef up my numbers for november because i have a feeling it will drop with thanksgiving coming up soon.

i really don't even remember what i talked about with my morning clients.  everyone is such a blur. 

time to get ready for bed so i can do it all over again tomorrow.

have faith.

i've been following this story about this high school female who was gang raped outside her homecoming dance in california.  it was horrific enough that she was gang raped after her dance on school property but what really got me going was reading that about 20 students witnessed the 2 hour rape/beating of this girl.  to do such an act makes you a sick bastard that should be castrated or sent to jail so they could be someone's bitch for a few years but  to stand there and watch someone be gang raped and beaten makes you one sick mother f'er.  really?  has our world come to this?  really?

then the poor girl was left under a table to pretty much die.

the police were notified after someone in the dance heard about what happen.  at least we know someone in the school has some brains and human decency.

i know two wrongs don't make a right, but i would just love to just punch all those students watching.  how could you not call someone?  why would you watch something this awful being done to someone else?  i will never ever understand how 20 students stood there for 2 hours watching that. 

it's a shame those 20 students will not get in trouble.  i hope karma kicks their butt soon.

i feel super amped after writing about this.  it just disgusts me how people could behave in such awful ways.

on to better news, the weather looks like it will be holding up so i'm excited to take the girls to boo at the zoo later today.

happy halloween! be safe.

have faith.

i am SO ready for the weekend and to just sleep in.  work is bogging me down and i don't care to do work on the weekends.  i have oh about 12 notes to do before my monday deadline.  the smart thing would be to stay at work a little bit late today or get some done now since i have a pretty packed weekend but no.  who really can do work at home after getting off from work?  not i! i'll try to get some of it done today because i really don't want to wake up super early monday to go to work even earlier than i do now to finish my notes.

it's so weird that today is really, really warm.  it's was in the 70s and fairly sunny.  quite a odd for this time of year but it's ohio.  one can never be surprised at the most random and unseasonable weather that comes.  it's so warm i want to crack open all the windows and let the warm air in.  too bad the weather won't hold for all the weekend activities.

have faith.

i had one fantastic weekend in richmond with some of the cousins.  thanks to vinh and steve for hanging out.  it was really a stress and drama free weekend filled with food and laughter that was usually at my expense.  it was great to stop by nga and jonathan's house and visit for a bit.  i was put to work and used a power tool to put in 2 screws in their deck.  the video clip is posted and i'm sure many of you will be amused at how long it took me to do it.

highlights of the trip were the amazing chocolate store, me stepping in a giant puddle twice, blowing up bi's phone and yelling outside his apartment, the ram horn pics, and countless inside jokes.

thanks guys for the fab weekend.

i'm glad i have today off to recoup from the weekend.  i would've taken yesterday off but i had a bunch of junk to turn in at the monday morning deadline.  i was so relieved when i walked in to work yesterday and was told that i didn't have to run the drug and alcohol group.  someone up above must really, really love me (prob my relatives and anson pleaded with the Big Guy) to give me such a break.  i was getting so nervous sunday about running group and wanted to vomit on my drive to work thinking about running the group.

time to finish the rest of my errands and enjoy the rest of my day off.  i am really feeling this 4 day work week thing.

have faith.

today i had to say good bye to my old geocities site.  it was my first webpage/blog that i started in 2000.  it was a little sad to see the site shut down.  after i came home from richmond, i stayed up for a long time saving all the old pics that were on the site.  it was really nice to go down memory lane and look at the old pics of my high school and college days.  i gave up on the page a long time ago and took up blogging my senior year of college. 

good bye geocities.  it's been fun.

have faith.

i am so frustrated with work right now that it is unbelievable.  i was asked monday if i wanted to run the drug and alcohol group that was facilitated by the co worker whose last day is this friday.  i was irritated because one, i hate doing group but i will pretty much do anything to keep my job and two, i felt i should've been given more notice to run the group.  my schedule has been booked for that time slot two weeks out.  i did not have time to sit in on the group to see how it was ran or really get any training on it.

i wanted to tell the site supervisor no i don't want to do it but after talking to my supervisor a lot monday night, i made the decision to do it.  it was a long couple of nights where i was tossing and turning on what to do.  i hate doing groups.  i hate not being prepared.  i think i stressed myself out so much i gave myself two zits.  i was so nervous writing the email this morning agreeing to do the stupid group.

i just wish i was approached a month ago when the co-worker gave her notice so i can ask questions and learn what i need to do to continue to run the group effectively.

i wonder if my frustration is intensified because my period started today?  too much info i know.

i am so glad tomorrow is a half day and that i took friday off.  i can't stand to be at work for much longer this week.  thank goodness i have something fabulous planned for the weekend to get my mind off work.

have faith.