today is so not a good day for many reasons that i will talk write about shortly.  the first bleh thing was during my clinical meeting, it was announced that due to the financial crunch of the agency, therapists will be denied any vacation requests if they are not meeting productivity.  i was ticked off when i heard that.  how could my work deny me vacation when it is in my contract?  someone asked if we would be able to carry it over if we're not allowed to use it and we were informed we would lose it.  sucky.

so then my assessment shows up 20 minutes late and when intake apologizes to me about the appointment, i know it's going to be one long assessment.  i get the client and was thinking oh man, why did you have to show up.  she proceeded to make various statements about harming other people and i had to assess to see if she would be a real risk to people.  after assessing the risk factors and having her sign a safety contract, i let her go praying she won't off somebody this weekend.

so i drive home happy that the day is over.  i'm cruising a long when i heard a loud cracking sound.  i  looked up and saw that i have a dime sized dent in my front windshield.  first thought was &^($! another expense i have to deal with now.  i called up some of my friends who know a thing or two about cars and was told either to go to safelight or the auto store.  i got a quote and it would cost me roughly $150 for a little ding.  i have to do something because i don't want the crack to spread across my windshield.  argh!  i should call up my car insurance to see if they would cover the repair.  that would be sweet.

thankfully, the day is over and i can coast on to the weekend.

have faith.

it's been a nice full two days of catching up with old friends.  yesterday was dinner and conversation that lasted two hours and then we continued to talk after we went home.  it's nice to know my friend has my back on a lot of different things that has happened since our last dinner date.

today, i met up with ken for lunch and to hang out a bit before he left for hk.  i missed his hot pot party/going out event in december due to events related to my grandma.  although we don't talk much because of his work schedule, my strict sleep schedule and because he says a lot of things to provoke me, i had to meet up with him for all he has done for me 4.5 years ago and because he is in the end my friend. 

we were friends prior to anson's passing, but after that he really took on a protective role.  i remember him calling me a lot to check on me and driving up to my house to pick me up so i can be in columbus to be part of the planning for anson's funeral.  i remember him taking me wherever i needed to go and making sure i ate something.  i remember him giving me the best purple towel when i crashed at his place one night.  i remember he and i stayed up that night talking about anson and how bad he felt for me.  i remember him yelling at me as i was watching the aaliyah video over and over on his computer  i remember him always making time for me whenever i came to columbus (it was trying since he was often late).  i remember him being very comforting and putting aside his usual jerk-like antics for a few months until i got through the first few months. i remember every little thing he has done for me, especially during that time.

it was a good day hanging out with him reminiscing about the past and talking about our future plans.  i got teary eyed when he gave me a lot of support and said he hasn't seen me happy and smiling like this for several years.  he then proceeded to tell me that he's happy that it seems like i moved on from everything and that i've healed.  he also said that he would beat up any guy that was ever mean to me or did not treat me the way i should be treated since i'm his "older sister". i did not want the water works to come at the restaurant so it typical judy fashion, i told him to shut up.

it was a good day and i feel better about a lot of things after seeing and talking to him.  even though he will be on a different continent, he'll still be my friend.  we've been through too much to lose contact.  now i gotta start saving for his wedding in hk in a few years since he's expecting me to be there!

as the cliche goes, it's not good bye but see ya later.

have faith.

as if my work couldn't get any worse, it did today.  i get an email from my friend/co-worker to make sure i meet with her today.  when we both had an opening, she goes into my office and shuts the door.  she told me our sup confronted her about rude things she said about other co-workers.  my friend nearly lost it when our sup told her almost word for word what my friend and i were talking about in private behind her closed door earlier this week.  our sup told her two people came to her about what my friend said.  my friend then challenged her by saying she only told those things to me and asked who the second person was.  my friend never found out who the second person was.

so today, my friend comes in and tells me we can't talk in our offices anymore because people are obviously eavesdropping on private conversations.  keep in mind the whole time she is telling me this she is whispering.  she also told me people who are notorious for gossiping and not keeping their mouths shut because she got burned by people she thought she could trust. 

i trust her because i knew her way back from grad school.  i just felt sick to my stomach that the work environment has gotten that toxic.

on a much, much happier note, just watched the buried life.  i really like it because the guys are hilarious and they do a good deed each episode.  it just makes you feel good after watching it.  plus it doesn't hurt that the guys are hot.  duncan and ben are my faves.

have faith.

so i'm driving home from work tired from a stressful day at work.  i pull up to my apartment and see an empty space next to vic's car and a car with someone sitting it in talking on the cell phone.  the car was turned on since i was able to see the head lights.  i pull up thinking i had room but found that the guy sitting in his car had parked his car in the middle of two spots.  i didn't realize this until i tried to park in the spot only to realize i couldn't since rude guy had taken up two spots.  he saw the whole thing happened because he had backed into the parking spot.  i was ticked off that one, he didn't fix his parking since he was taking up two spaces and he clearly saw me trying to park but made no efforts to move into one spot.  i was about to say something to him but his daughter was sitting next to him in the car.

really?  how rude can you be?

this guy totally irritates me because he often parks in the handicap spot without a handicap marker anywhere in his car.  how rude, inappropriate, and lazy are you?  after tonight's incident, i will make it a point to discuss this inappropriate behavior with him when he doesn't have his daughter with him.  it's just not right for him to do that.

just so many rude people encounters as of late.  it feels like it's let's be rude week.

have faith.

vinh left today and i'm really bummed about it.  i had a lot of fun with him this weekend.  he is one of the nicest, sweetest, thoughtful, and genuine guys i know.  whoever ends up with him will be one very extremely girl.  if she remotely gives him trouble, i will have no problems setting her straight.  i'm sure nancy will help me knock out any girl that messes with vinh.  we're just uber protective of him.

did the usual eating out and we went to the rock and roll of fame since i knew vinh would enjoy it since he's all about music.  i learned about the electric guitar and will never see it the same way again.  it was pretty cool!

i thought i would be falling asleep at work since i got only 3 hours of sleep.  i brewed some strong viet coffee compliments of diem because i knew i needed it.  got to work and was getting settled for the day.  my sup comes in and says she needs to use my comp and my email since her email was down.  i minimize my gmail and bring up my email for her to use.  she writes her email and i noticed she was clicking around.  she finally left, and i go back to my desk.

my stomach dropped when i saw that my gmail was maximized.  why the heck she would bring that up or even click around my computer is beyond me.  i felt like throwing up when i realized the first few emails were my updated resume and reference requests to old coworkers and friends.  i hope to goodness that my sup did not see those emails because i just don't want to get ax'ed.  needless to say, i was super paranoid the whole day that i did not feel the least bit tired.

i just now have to make sure everything i do is perfect and lay low for awhile until my sup forgets about it.

work blows since the billing department is scattered all over the clinical floor.  i have the main billing person across from me and am not really fond of her.  it was just awful today that they were being so loud moving their crap into the clinical offices that they were really being disruptive for anyone in session. 

can work get any worse?

it's just a bleh day, fitting for a monday.  vinh left and all this work junk happened today.  thank goodness the day is over and i can pass out now.

have faith.

awful, awful day at work.  now my sup and the clinical director are closely watching my schedule since i had an another awful week (monday only 2 people showed up on my 11 hour day at work.  not productive billing wise to say the least).  my stress level was sky  high when today only 1 person showed up.  needless to say i won't make productivity.

so what do i do when i'm super bummed or stress?  shop of course.  i printed out a shopping coupon, went to one of my fave stores, and scored a cute spring shirt for $5.  i also stopped by vs during their semi-annual sale and scored a sleep shirt for $5 as well.

felt better already.

went home, ate lunch, and will clean the apartment a little so vinh won't die from the amount of dust in the apartment.  in about an hour and a half, i'll be off to pick up vinh!

SO excited for him to be here.  thinking about the weekend is what got me through this work week.

eeek!

have faith.

as i was contently munching on my tacos for dinner, i get a call from nancy.  she was commenting on how surprised to read on my blog that i adore the show glee.  i told her i like the acting and the singing.  quite simply, it's a good show.  she then proceeded to say part of her surprise was due to the fact that the show was happy.  am i that depressing or jaded that i give off the vibe that i don't like cheery, happy things?  maybe it's because i wear black practically every single day.  i don't know.  i found her comment slightly amusing.  i probably confirmed her thoughts about me when i mentioned i adore sue sylvester's character because she's so dark and slightly evil.

for the record, i love happy things.  in fact, i prefer happy feel good things to sad, depressing things.

now i have a glee partner to discuss show plots with and get glee songs from without having to go on a downloading spree.

wish american idol would be over so glee could come back!

have faith.

during my grocery store trip, i called vinh to see what snacks and drinks he wanted for the weekend.  he proceeded to tell me a snack that he wouldn't mind having and that he was ok drinking from the faucet (gross).  i then talked to him about some places to eat and things to see on saturday.  after the planning was completed, i asked him about his sisterhood weekend.  he told me bits and pieces of what happened and then told me to guess the name the "sisters" came up with for vinh's brew.  i should've known where this was going but didn't at the time.  he proudly told me they came up with lady drunk and requested a pic of me intoxicated.  i told him that i no longer get intoxicated and the only chance of him finding pics of that nature are in my old hard drive in his parents' basement.

i'm not quite sure how to take it.  i suppose it's an honor to have something named after me but a beer?  i hope it's not the nastiest beer ever.

i am so pumped for vinh to come up for the weekend!!!

i chopped my hair.  4-5 inches off to be exact.  i figured i needed a change since i was getting tired of my long locks.  new hair, new attitude.  it's a lot more choppier than i expected but it still looks good. 

if there's one thing every one should know, hardly anyone could pull a fast one over both vic and i.  one of us will catch the inconsistencies and lies.  word.

have faith.

thank goodness i'll be going to the other office tomorrow because i'm so close to losing it at work.  since friday, i had daily mini meetings about productivity.  i may be an air head some days, but i know my stats aren't good for december.  i know i need my flaky clients to show up and bail me out of this jam but that's highly unlikely.  i know from my meeting on friday what's on the line.  i know what i need to do better than anyone else in that office.  i get it the first time.  no need to tell me every freaking day what i need to do.  it's so annoying that i now have a memo in my file stating i had low numbers this quarter.  really was that necessary?  was it also necessary to put that i need to schedule at least 24 appointments a week?  hello, i am booked solid!!!  i don't block off time for lunch!  i was a bit insulted by that little paragraph but whatever.

i just find myself hiding more and more in my office each day.  i used to have my office open when i wasn't seeing clients but now i'm just shutting it because i can't handle my sup and the clinical director knocking on my door to talk about productivity.  just so tired of it.

thankfully, i have some things on the horizons to look forward to.

it's time for a change in environment.  hopefully something comes up soon because things just aren't fun anymore.

have faith.

i just finished watching an episode of glee and it is now one of my favorite new shows.  i heard so much about this show but for whatever reason, it didn't interest me when it was on.  my interest started when i heard the glee version of last christmas.  when i learned that an episode was on this week, i decided to tape it. now that i caught one episode, i'm hooked.  the music in the show is great and done well.  the writing is sharp and hilarious.  the teacher is hot because he can sing and dance.  really, what's not to like?

i can't wait until april for new episodes to come on.  now i have to find a way to watch the beginning episodes so i can figure out what's going on in the show.

have faith.